silence creates the unspeakable in the absence of belief. but part of recovery is the exoneration of grief.

TO BE KNOWN...
is the worst of all things, megumi thinks. but there is nothing worse than having love, and nothing worse than having hope, and the worst of all things is that she has inside herself an abundance of both,the love,the hope,AND THE UNDERSTANDING...
that there are some things that may never be forgiven, and some things she should not be forgiven for, and some things she should,but megumi thinks that...gojo is right.that ridiculous man.MEGUMI THINKS THAT GOJO IS RIGHT.
to say:1. love is the most twisted curse of all
2. there is no jujutsu-shi that dies with no regretbut all the same, gojo says, we must live because we met. you lived to meet sukuna, megumi-kun, and he lived to meet you.for better or worse, you woke him. you woke something inside him that must not have been stirred.AND YOU UNDERSTAND...
we are trying to prevent the same in yuuji-kun, understand?you don't know what sukuna is capable of, so be careful. i...maybe he won't turn out the same way this time, if you play it right.(IF I LOVE HIM TIGHT,) megumi thinks. but doubts, too, that love is enough of a simple thing...to be capable of such wonder, and such a beginning.DO YOU REMEMBER? I WONDER IF YOU REMEMBER, gojo says. SOMETIMES I THINK YOU MUST, SURELY, AND OTHERS...MEGUMI SAYS ONLY:
i think it's better, regardless of if i remember, disregarding whether i remember or not, that i only know that sukuna remembers something about me...THAT SILLY COCK-A-DOODLE-THING...that he does and does not remember in equal measure, like yuuji-kun, and it is better if he live his life in the present regardless, and exonerate the grief of the past.THEN, and only then,
can he exorcise his own curse,
and forgive himself even for unforgivable things,
and live for a future...which may bring what it brings.WHY, MEGUMI-KUN...gojo says.
AREN'T YOU TALKING ABOUT YOURSELF?megumi shrugs. I COULD BE.

in the night i confess the worst things about myself, i show weakness to hunting dogs. as a hunted dog. A HUNTING DOG.

do you understand the same things I do, sukuna, about the way the world we live in works...?can you still smile knowing i've lured like a ningyo/ningyou and sung men to their deaths who tried to eat my flesh to make themselves immortal? IMMORTAL, IMMORAL.SUKUNA: what's with that HAUGHTY-ASS EXPRESSION. you should be HONORED to go night-hunting with THE HIGH LORD OF ALL CURSES AND DEADLY POISONS, as well as THE HIGH KING OF BIRDS, instead of looking like you're sucking sour out of your own COCKHEAD, cockhead.YOU: you're being hunted, pussy. so am i. we're prizes. we are meant to be bought and sold as trophies. we aren't PEOPLE. gojo is stupid to treat us as such.SUKUNA: ???YOU: could you LOOK more imbecilic.SUKUNA: you're being FUCKING MEAN today, megumi.YOU: you think we should run?SUKUNA: NOW THAT'S STUPID!! six-eyes said he's going to help us. OF COURSE IT'S FOR HIS OWN FUCKING AGENDA. but we don't have to listen to him all the way through. obey as far as it bids us to obey, and deny him when he needs us the most. that's how it hurts, baby!YOU: i...the thing is...YOU: (swallowing) the thing is, his entire thing is to, to prevent, to prevent another YOU. that's what he's doing with manipulating itadori-kun. that's, that's what he's doing, to try to manipulate itadori-kun into. into not. becoming the next YOU.YOU: WHAT THE FUCK IS SO BAD ABOUT A LITTLE PUSSYCAT, HUH? YOU'RE JUST, SOME KIND OF KITTEN! YOU DON'T, YOU'RE NOT, YOU...YOU: why does everyone think you're such this, this, why does, yoshino-san, gojo-sensei, maki-san, kugisaki-san, why does everyone...YOU AREN'T HURTING ANYONE! but...YOU: YOU CAN SEE THEY'RE JUST WAITING FOR A CHANCE TO DECIMATE YOU FROM EVER EXISTING AGAIN! likeーlike gojo thinks, he thinks, he thinks if he prevents itadori-kun from becoming YOU, then, he can retroactively prevent you from ever existing, THAT'S his game, i know it, i see his play,HOW CAN YOU JUST, JUST ACCEPT IT!SUKUNA: i'm not accepting it. but it isn't time to act yet. AND, YOU KNOW...you have never seen me at my worst. (i pray you never do.) (and even if you come to...i'll protect you.) (OR RUIN YOUR BODY AGAIN.)MEGUMI: sukuna...

I FORGIVE YOU.

I forgive you anything you may have ever done. THIS TIME WILL BE DIFFERENT. you will have won.

THERE IS A WAY OUT OF THIS INFINITY LOOP WITH ONLY REGRETS AND DEATHS THAT NEVER SET AND RESURRECTIONS THAT LOSE EVERY DICE THAT BET.

i'll find it for you.
we'll find it together.

there's more to a wolf's reckoning than you know.

HAVEN'T YOU EVER HEARD THE LEGEND?

if two of us make the same wish, it will come true.

I FORGIVE YOU.

IF TWO OF US MAKE THE SAME WISH, IT WILL COME TRUE.

SUKUNA: megumi. are you a gambling girl?

MEGUMI: why?

SUKUNA: BECAUSE I'D LIKE TO MAKE A BET.

MEGUMI: on what?

SUKUNA: can you forgive me (again) even if the nigh-worst were to come to pass. once again, the worst at last.

SUKUNA: IF I BECAME NOT JUST A CURSE BUT THE WORST AGAIN...

SUKUNA: well. would you roll the dice?

MEGUMI: without fail.

MEGUMI: i trust you won't hurt me.

SUKUNA: do you trust me not to hurt others? what about others?

MEGUMI: do they matter?

MEGUMI: in this world i have you alone.

SUKUNA: why?

MEGUMI: because others would sacrifice you to save "me," simply for the nature of my birth, which is as NOT A CURSE! or NOT A CURSE...YET! but as someone who uses curse techniques and curse energy...i inherited.from a bloodline
that didn't want me.I DON'T CARE FOR SUCH THINGS.the only thing i wish for in a lover...

SUKUNA: is that why you'll try your luck to see what i become?

MEGUMI: it's because i know
you'll never hurt me.

SUKUNA: how can you be so certain?

YOU WISHED IT. DIDN'T YOU?

the wind sends the chime of the wishmaker's blessing on the wind.

A SILVER BELL RINGS.

【GOJO SATORU】
> hey. suguru.

【GETO SUGURU】
< what?

【GOJO SATORU】
> do you think our story has a good ending or a bad one?

【GETO SUGURU】
< idk what the fuck you mean
by that, satoru.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i mean, do you think...> it should be like this always, right?> with you by my side?

【GETO SUGURU】
< what the fuck are you asking that for, where's that nasty little
prissy bitch who's
so stuck up< he can't see past his shit.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i...I KNOW I TALK
A, A LOT OF SHIT.> I, EVERY TIME, every time i see it, i can't stop it, i grow up like this always, not...not knowing, it just happens like this every time, even when i know, i don't know, i forget, i ignore, i can't stop myself from making THE SAME MISTAKES,> but without you, i know i'll end up alone.

【GETO SUGURU】
< so what, you're reduced
to manipulating me to stay?< that's fucked up.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i like you. suguru.
> suguru ga suki da.

【GETO SUGURU】
...

【GOJO SATORU】
> dame darou?
> no good?

【GETO SUGURU】
...

【GETO SUGURU】
<...imasara dakara na.< it's already too late.it's too little,
and it's too late.

【GOJO SATORU】
> how can i fix it?
> how can i make you like me again?

【GETO SUGURU】
< i don't know if i ever did.
< you never seemed to like me much.
< i barely believe you now.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i like you, suguru.
> i like you so much.> you know? i showed off all the time. because i wanted to show you how good i was.> if i was good enough, maybe you'd like me, even though we're both men.> if i was good enough, it wouldn't matter. and you would like me.> and you'd fall in love with me and kiss me and stay with me forever, if i showed you and kept showing you how good i was.> it would be enough to keep you, it would be enough to stay.> i thought the friction made it exciting, so you wouldn't get bored of me, and you wouldn't look at me and realize...> THERE IS A HOLLOWNESS IN INFINITY. and the omniscience of obsession.> it doesn't mean anything without you, you know. none of it does. I WOULD GIVE IT UP, I WOULD BE LESS, I WOULD, I WOULD JUST, KNOW LESS AND BE LESS AND SEE LESS...> behind the illusion of ego is nothing, there is no ego, there is no yolk in this egg, it is empty. the egg is just a possibility of a shell, and it is hollow inside.> in the hollowness lies the infinite potential to become anything, any possibility, any perception of reality can be true in my genjutsu.> when others see the world like i see it, they become paralyzed by the inhuman shock of infinity.> but i would give it up if...

【GETO SUGURU】
< we're not children anymore, suguru.< i'm not a toy you broke that you're upset you don't know how to fix it.< we are two betta fish, satoru.< you know how to take care of betta fish? you have to keep one to a tank
because they are so territorial.< they'll kill each other
if they're together.< IF YOU PUT THEM TOGETHER,
ONE OF THEM HAS TO DIE.< if i stayed with you, i would have died. i may still die by your hand. but at leasti don't have to be around you
rubbing your glory in my eyes. not everyone has the good fortune to beHEAVEN'S FAVORED, HEAVEN'S FAVORITE.< i can't be my own person
around you. i am only
an inferior comparison.< it isn't emptiness.
it isn't empty words.< it isn't even resentment, envy, avarice, jealousy, coldness.< I HATE YOU, SATORU.< and if i had stayed...at the jujutsu institute. if i played proper jujutsu-shi and spent the rest of my life in your shadow fighting for things i don't know i believe. but that didn't matter to you until too late. and that i...< inside me the passion for protecting the weak, it began to sour and abate...< if the weak should be protected. which you never thought in our time together.< if the weak should be protected, then why did i feel the threat of failure like a death incoming every time.< if i was weak in your eyes, you'd stop looking at me.< and i'd be nothing to you.< BUT THE THING IS...< i was always already weak.
anyone is, compared to you.< no one is good enough for you. what the fuck are you even TALKING about, being good enough for me?< that's not the problem, that's not the issue. the issue is that NO ONE IS GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i love you.

【GETO SUGURU】
< THAT'S NOT ENOUGH.

【GOJO SATORU】
> what if i told you i'd change.> i'd become someone you could love.> would you stay, would you come back to me then, suguru?> if i could change myself to be someone you could love.

【GETO SUGURU】
< your ego is too fuckign fat for that. it's impossible for you.< TO BE【GOJO SATORU】is to be an annihilating perfectionist who is so much better than everyone else no one will ever meet his caliber.< no one will ever be good enough for you, satoru.< if i said yes to you, you'd only tire of me. you'd get rid of me, and then where would i be.< you are insatiable, and you are like a child who wants the toy someone says he can't have, and when you have it, you exhaust it until there is nothing left, and then it's over and done.< for the toy you broke, of course.< after you won.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i love you. i don't know what to do. i haven't been myself after you left the jujutsu institute.> i don't care about the people you killed. i don't care about any of it. you have your reasons.> but i have no one left.> THERE IS NO ONE IN "MY WORLD" THAT IS AS IMPORTANT AS YOU.> there is no one in "my world."> IN A PERFECT INFINITY THERE IS ONLY THE ABSENCE OF EXISTENCE BECAUSE FULFILLING THE VOID IS THE INFINITE POSSIBILITY OF ALL SIMULTANEOUS EXISTENCES OCCURRING CONCURRENTLY.> a perfect infinity is a hollow shell that holds nothing. because it must hold and decide to be nothing, or it must decide to be everything, because only in absence is the presence of all possibility.> come back, suguru.> please?> we can be best friends again. and i can just love you. i can even love you silently.> I'LL EVEN LEAVE. THE JUJUTSU-SHI.> if it means i can be by your side.> THERE IS NOTHING THAT REALLY MATTERS TO ME ANYMORE.> it doesn't mean anything to be powerful if there is no one beside you. what is it worth? to be "the best" or "the strongest" or "the most [x]" if there is no one to come home to at the end of the day and there is no one to celebrate a hard day's work or to bitch and whine to about a rough one.> waking up knowing i'm alone and going to sleep knowing i'm alone and that the only reason i stay with the jujutsu-shi isn't out of any "morality" but because i have nowhere to go and nothing i want.> CAN WE BE TOGETHER AGAIN? like before.> i miss you.

【GETO SUGURU】
< GET AHOLD OF YOURSELF, satoru.< you aren't acting like yourself.< i don't know what you wanted from this. by telling me all of this.< nothing's going to change. nothing CAN change. you aren't going to change, either.< you're just having some kind of EPISODE. you'll wake up and go back to your PREPROGRAMMED LEVELS OF INSUFFERABILITY< and then what. where will i be.

【GOJO SATORU】
> you don't believe me?> even if i promise?> i'd make you a binding vow.

【GETO SUGURU】
< what is this, a marriage proposal?< satoru, get a grip.< I KNOW IT SEEMS CRUEL...but it just can't be done, we can't go on like this, we can't go on together, we have to separate, it's just impossible, it's just not fate.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i can see every single possibility in the world.> IF YOU WANTED ME ENOUGH, YOU WOULD SAY YES.

【GETO SUGURU】
< WHETHER I "WANT" YOU OR NOT ISN'T THE FUCKING POINT.< it's that once you have everything in the world you could ever fucking want again, all your toys at hand, all your fucking little playthings,especially me,< you won't remember you had this weird fucking EPISODE,< and i'll go back to being
that piece of pulpyou smash into
insignificancefor fun.

【GOJO SATORU】
> then...YOU DO WANT ME?

【GETO SUGURU】
< OF FUCKING COURSE I DO! BUT WE CAN'T, SATORU, WE CAN'T!< you know what, you are the strongest, the bestest, the most fucked up wondress.< if you hurt me,
i'll never recover.< that's why i can't say yes.

【GOJO SATORU】
> will you say yes to this?(puts a hand on suguru's cheek, slowly drawing him closer, pressing his soft rose pink lips on suguru's pale skin, watching his eyelashes lower and flutter.)

【GETO SUGURU】
< satoru.(breathing picks up as satoru kisses his face, raining kisses down his cheek and jaw and throat, soft, wet, and sucking hot and humid fairy breaths...)< we shouldn't.

【GOJO SATORU】
> say yes. won't you say yes?> it's not, it doesn't mean anything, it's just sex.> if it's just sex, will you say yes? i'll be good, suguru. i'll do anything.

【GETO SUGURU】
< anything?(suguru places his hand on satoru's tiny waist, sliding his palm up behind him, feeling his warmth through his jujutsu-shi uniform, satoru's breathing picking up as he urges his body closer, pressing flat against suguru's chest.)(satoru throws his arms around suguru's neck, flattening against him, climbing into the cradle of suguru's hips as suguru locks his legs around him.)(satoru is pressed chest to chest, abs to abs, against suguru, hips rubbing together, satoru chasing friction mindlessly, like trying to scratch an itch.)

【GOJO SATORU】
> yes, of course.(satoru purrs into suguru's chest, kissing up his throat mindlessly like kitten licking and nipping, curling his arms around suguru's head to bring him in closer and closer.)

【GETO SUGURU】
< even let me fuck you?

【GOJO SATORU】
> uh-huh, do you have stuff in this shitty temple of yours?

【GETO SUGURU】
< we're in my bedroom, right? it's in the chest next to the futon. let's move there.(suguru grabs onto satoru and rolls him across the floor until they land on the futon, and suguru slips a hand under the futon for lube.)< no condoms tho.

【GOJO SATORU】
> don't want them.

【GETO SUGURU】
< you'd really let me fuck you?

【GOJO SATORU】
> yeah. only you though.

【GETO SUGURU】
< didn't think you'd be so easy.

【GOJO SATORU】
> you made it fucking hard.(panting) making me have that heart-to-heart. don't even know how you feel about me.(suguru strips satoru of his clothes and rapid fire tosses his own out, until they're both naked, skin to skin alone.suguru's skin is so fucking hot, his entire body cutely splotched red with arousal, his cock taking interest and pointing up.satoru's in no better shape, mindlessly chasing any friction, still a fucking virgin.)> i'd only bottom for you, you know.> desperate times, desperate measures.

【GETO SUGURU】
< it feels good, you know.< if someone does it right. and they're not a selfish asshole.
like SOMEONE.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i...i know it feels good. how do you know? i, it should feel good. i know. i just...don't trust someone other than you to not be a selfish asshole to me. you know?

【GOJO SATORU】
> have you...

【GOJO SATORU】
> have you done it before?

【GETO SUGURU】
< yeah, just meaningless. guys who picked me up. just. one night stands that didn't fucking mean fuck.< it was whatever. i wanted to know. it does feel good.< physically.

【GOJO SATORU】
> but not...?(suguru is tired of talking and flips satoru under him, kissing his lips for once, just open mouthed kisses without tongue, lips pressing bruisingly hard against one another, working rhythmically in tandem, both of them chasing their pleasure,satoru's body heats up without him, he is 20 years old and still a virgin because the only boy he has ever been in love with hates him and still does.)

【GETO SUGURU】
< it feels better like this.
this doesn't mean anything either.< but somehow it feels better.(suguru kisses satoru again and again, sucking on his bottom lip, licking into his mouth, swallowing up satoru's moans and his twitching fingers curling into suguru's long hair, pulling his face in closer by pinning suguru's face between a hand on the back of his head crushing his hair and satoru's lips sucking along his.suguru can't get over how good it feels, insanely good. satoru smells amazing, a little sweet, like milk candy, but also like the sticky sweet juice of white peaches with the faint yogurt scent of calpico.fucking loser and his sweet tooth.satoru's body smells like something else, too, smelling like heat and a touch of salt and clean sweat.it heats his body up so much, he thrusts his hips down against suguru's cock, frankly just rubbing up against each other would be good, too.for a second, suguru is uncertain. is he pushing satoru into this?what if satoru wasn't faking it? what if he meant all that stuff?isn't it just a ploy for sex? it is, isn't it? isn't that what...isn't that, what else could gojo mean about, about liking him? that's bullshit, isn't it?

【KENJAKU】
>> OF COURSE IT WAS! IT'S JUST ANOTHER PETTY PLOY, DON'T FALL FOR HIS FUCKING GAMES!>> YOU'RE JUST A TOY TO HIM, YOU'LL ALWAYS BE JUST A FUCKING TOY!

【GETO SUGURU】
<< BUT HE...he really wants it, kenjaku. he really, really wants it.<< I WANT HIM TOO.<< I WANT HIM SO FUCKING BADLY I SHED FUCKING TEARS WHEN I'M FUCKING MYSELF THINKING OF HIM!<< I WANT HIM TO TOUCH ME, I WANT HIM TO WANT ME, I WANT HIM TO TELL ME I'M GOOD ENOUGH, I WANT HIM TO STOP TALKING SHIT ABOUT HOW I'M NOTHING, HOW I'M WEAK, HOW THERE'S NOTHING IN PROTECTING THE WEAK, NO WORTH IN PROTECTING THE WEAK,<< (SO IF IT WAS TRUE I WAS WEAK, HE WOULDN'T PROTECT ME, I CAN'T KEEP UP WITH YOU ANYMORE, SATORU! i can't keep up...i'm afraid you don't mean it this time, i'm afraid because if you didn't mean it this time, it would break my fucking heart to pieces, i'd be bloody heartpulp and shreds of a fucking soulmechanism and i'd be nothing but all the curses i ingested.)<< but what if i'm doing a bad thing, kenjaku.<< what if i'm doing a bad thing by, by taking advantage of his, he, his whatever, EPISODE, he's in right now, and what if.<< it's bad? to fuck him?<< I WANT TO SHOW HIM HOW GOOD IT CAN BE. I WANT HIM TO CUM ON MY COCK AND MAKE HIM FEEL GOOD. i want him to feel good, i want him to want me, i want to do this again, i want to kiss him forever.

【KENJAKU】
>> HE JUST WANTS TO USE YOU AGAIN TO BOLSTER HIS OWN EGO. WHEN YOU LEFT HE DIDN'T HAVE ANYONE ELSE TO TALK DOWN TO BECAUSE NO ONE CAN STAND HIS INSUFFERABLE ASS.>> HE'S ONLY BEGGING NOW
BECAUSE HE'S LONELY.>> WHEN YOU SHOW UP AGAIN, IF YOU LET HIM STAY WITH YOU, IF YOU STAY TOGETHER AGAIN, HE'LL JUST GO BACK TO THE SAME OLD SHIT.>> you were right to leave.>> And Listen To Me.

【GOJO SATORU】
> suguru?(satoru is kissing suguru's lips, sucking lightly, wanting his attention again.)

【GETO SUGURU】
< are you a virgin, satoru?

【GOJO SATORU】
(climbing up suguru, hooking his legs around his waist and wrapping his arms around his neck, nuzzling into the warm breath of skin.)> yeah.(sucking hard on suguru's throat as he gasps and moans, instinctively thrusting his cock forward, satoru purring and nodding.)> but i want it. i want you to fuck me. show me how good it is. do you want that? would that make you want me?

【GETO SUGURU】
< i don't...i don't know if we should...can we do something else?< I...i had my virginity taken by a selfish cockslit of a guy who only saw me as a fuckhole and. it sucked and was bad.< your virginity should be special, satoru. you should...you should do it with someone.< you should do it with someone who will take care of you.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i want it to be you.

【GETO SUGURU】
< satoru, i'm not a good person.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i know that.

【GETO SUGURU】
< you're not a good person, either.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i know that, too.

【GETO SUGURU】
< i think...is it a bad idea?< to have sex?< MAYBE YOU SHOULD...you should just leave. i...i don't know anything anymore. i just...i don't know how to tell if you're serious or not. you're always playing around...and you're always on top of the world...< i don't know.< am i taking advantage of you?

【GOJO SATORU】
> I'm seducing You.

【GETO SUGURU】
< i know, but...< it just occurred to me. the possibility...you could have been serious. about everything.< and i don't know what to do with that. i don't know what to do with the future that exists where i fuck you and it's good and we do it again and we enter some kind of non-relationship relationship that's definitely sexual and has a lot of fucked up feelings and, is that good? is that the good ending you were talking about?< I DON'T KNOW.< you're still my best friend, satoru.< i miss you so much.(kissing his fluffy white hair, inhaling its dry dandelion scent.)

【GOJO SATORU】
> believe me or don't believe me. the truth is that i love you. my truth is that i love you.> your truth might be something different.> I JUST...> (small) i didn't want this truth to be unspeakable anymore.> (smaller) the unspeakable arises in the silence that comes from the absence of belief.> if you don't believe me, what i said to you was so unspeakable it was unheard, and rendered silent.> but i heard me. i believe me. i love you. i believe i love you. i believe, so it's no longer unspeakable.(still hard, arousal simmering low, wiggling his hips and crossing his ankles behind suguru.)

【GETO SUGURU】
< i don't...i don't know if i can believe you.< i haven't...i haven't decided yet.< but if you're, you're sure that you want me to fuck you, for me to take your virginity, for me to have it, as a gift,< i'll fuck you good. you asshole.

【GOJO SATORU】
> (whispering lowly) yeah, fuck me good.(suguru pops open the lube and warms it in his fingers, laying satoru back down gently on the futon and rubbing circles around his hole to get him used to the oily sensation of the lube.satoru bucks and starts panting as suguru slips one finger into his relaxed hole as satoru gasps, clutching suguru's shoulders with a surprised moan.)> it feels really, wow, fuck, you're, you're like, your finger is INSIDE me, it's, it's, like, mfmgng, it's touching...i've never even...it's, it's...

【GETO SUGURU】
< you've never played back here?

【GOJO SATORU】
> well, i'd never thought you'd say yes. and i didn't...

【GETO SUGURU】
< you didn't?

【GOJO SATORU】
(hips wiggling and jumping at the second finger that works its way in, chest writhing with sensation)> i just didn't know it was anything special.

【GETO SUGURU】
< it's good when it's good. when it's...< it's just good when it's good. it's better when...it's like this, you know?

【GOJO SATORU】
> with someone you know?

【GETO SUGURU】
< with you, satoru.

【GOJO SATORU】
(suguru works three thick fingers in, and satoru breaks out into a full-body sweat, overheated and whining in his throat. his temple drips with sweat, white hair sticking to his forehead.)> c'mon. i'm ready.

【GETO SUGURU】
< is it good? do you like it?

【GOJO SATORU】
(satoru smirks, smug as a princess laying back on suguru's futon with seductress eyes.)> i won.

【GETO SUGURU】
< yeah, you always get what you want. want my cock, honeybird?

【GOJO SATORU】
(satoru lowers his eyelashes, knowing how pretty he is.)(suguru laughs and flicks his nose with his non-lube hand that isn't currently fingerbanging satoru's ass.)

【GETO SUGURU】
< shut the fuck up.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i didn't say anything～ you're being mean.

【GETO SUGURU】
< you're SMIRKING. i'm going to FUCK that smile off your face.

【GOJO SATORU】
> yeah give it to me, sweetheart.

【GETO SUGURU】
< fuck off, honeybird.

【GOJO SATORU】
(suguru slips his fingers out, lubes himself up, and then wipes his fingers on satoru's stomach.)> HEY THAT WASN'T SEXY. I'M NOT LIKE, A PAPER TOWEL.

【GETO SUGURU】
< you're as white as one.

【GOJO SATORU】
> OH BIG TALK COMING FROM YOU, MR. MY PEARLESCENT ASS HAS NEVER SEEN THE SUN and mr...my black hair is so lustrous, and long, and silky, and beautiful...your black eyelashes are so, fuck...i hate it sometimes, you're so lovely.

【GETO SUGURU】
< satoru...(are you sure this
means nothing to you?)< are you ready?

【GOJO SATORU】
> fuck me.

【GETO SUGURU】
(suguru fucks in, easing his cockhead in, which is still much blunter and wider than his fingers, moving at the pace of a snail to let satoru adjust, but satoru is already bearing down and fucking himself back on that cock, so anxious and eager for it that suguru slows him down, pinning him down with a hand on his stomach.)> c'mon, ease up. it'll hurt if you rush.

【GOJO SATORU】
> (panting) it should hurt a little, shouldn't it? you don't even fucking like me.

【GETO SUGURU】
< i like you. you're my best friend. the only best friend i ever had.

【GOJO SATORU】
> but you hate me, too.

【GETO SUGURU】
< yeah.
< i can't help but hate you.

【GOJO SATORU】
(but you don't fuck me like it, satoru doesn't say. his whole body is trembling around the blunt force of suguru's cock as it eases its way in too slowly.satoru wants MORE, he wants to be overwhelmed, he wants to forget it's his best friend and also remember forever that...it should hurt a little bit, shouldn't it? instead of just feeling insanely good, clenching around something inside him like working open a space he never knew he had.)

【GOJO SATORU】
(but it should hurt a little, satoru thinks, because suguru doesn't really want him, or like him, or need him, satoru is unnecessary to suguru.)

【GOJO SATORU】
(so it should hurt. but it doesn't, not even a little bit, just a hot wet slide in that's too slow that has satoru bucking his hips and writhing for more friction, more thrust, more SOMETHING that he doesn't even know the name of, his hips just chasing on instinct the good good feeling of something moving INSIDE him, in a place he never knew existed.)

【GETO SUGURU】
(when satoru just looks up at suguru with wet and slightly red peach blossom eyes in that infinite deep cerulean blue, suguru thrusts his hips on instinct without warning, NEEDING to watch satoru's face as SUGURU, and NO ONE ELSE, introduces him to a pleasure he's never known.)

【GOJO SATORU】
> ffFUCK, that, what are you, s-suguru, SUGURU(THIS is it, the overwhelming sparks behind his eyelids that are fucking him dizzy, drawing his eyes half to a close as he parts his lips and fucking moans for all he's worth, bucking his hips to meet suguru's thrusts, opening his legs wider and lifting them up over suguru's shoulders.suguru jumps midthrust at the sudden increase in depth, and satoru curls his toes and helplessly cries a little, tears wetting his eyelashes translucent and clumping them with dew like droplets of rain on a spiderweb.)> suguru, suguru please. fuck, touch me, touch me, im gonna, i wnat to, i need. fuck.

【GETO SUGURU】
< shh, let me take care of you. you're so fucking hot inside, scorching hot and wet and tight, so slick the glide, fuck...< you feel amazing.< the way you look, it's like fucking is your new favorite thing. i hope it takes a long time before you get bored of it, bored of me.

【GOJO SATORU】
(suguru angles his hips in such a way that satoru's mind goes blank, just fucking stupid, for a reason beyond even his infinite comprehension, it just feels so good to get fucked satoru doesn't even understand how any of it works or why, he feels like the simple pleasure of having a hard, hot, slick thing coming in and out of you shouldn't, he doesn't know, feel, like, good, at all, except it does for some reason, and satoru can't think about anything beyond the incomprehensible unfathomable pleasure and heat rapidly coalesing inside him in a place he doesn't understand well at all but that suguru fucks like he was born to do it.)

【GETO SUGURU】
<(SMUG) how are you feeling now, satoru?

【GOJO SATORU】
(satoru is just taking it, twisting his hips to meet every thrust, writhing on suguru's cock, the vague thought that he's GOING TO CUM ON SUGURU'S COCK is making him insane with 0 thoughts aside from IM GOING TO CUM ON HIS COCK IM GOING TO CUM ON HIS COCK and there's no room for any infinite deliberations anymore, just sheer, pure heat and pleasure.suguru's sweat drips down to satoru's face and he licks it, and he licks rapidly into suguru's mouth, sucking absently on suguru's tongue between panting in breaths he can't catch, suguru thrusting too hard for satoru to get a full breath in or out.he can't catch his bearing, but he doesn't want to, he's overwhelmed by suguru everywhere, his smell of clean sweat and jasmine ash, of temple incense and ginger.)

【GOJO SATORU】
> mmn, gonna cum.

【GETO SUGURU】
< cum on my cock, i'll follow you.< im gonna cum inside you, how does that sound?

【GOJO SATORU】
(satoru whines and curls his toes at the sound of suguru's high, soft voice warming his throat as suguru licks him, his thrusts coming erratic, and satoru panting faster and faster.)

【GETO SUGURU】
< want me to cum inside you?< you'll have to ask for it, honeybird.< if you can still think.

【GOJO SATORU】
> FUCK, fuck, suguru, suguru, im, i think im, god, yes, do that, i, uh> cum inside me, suguru, i want it, i want you, i want you so fucking much.> love you. mmn. fuck.

【GOJO SATORU】
(satoru cums untouched, and the instant he starts cumming, suguru spills inside him, rivulets of cum just splurting out and flooding the deepest parts of the man known as GOJO SATORU, the best, the strongest, the pillow princess currently panting in a puddle of sweat and lube and cum (and tears) and he laughs, giggling to himself and smiling lightly.)

【GETO SUGURU】
(suguru pulls out, satoru giving a pleasant wince as his length leaves him empty, his hole clutching on the white leaking out.)< how you feeling?

【GOJO SATORU】
> fucked.

【GETO SUGURU】
< good?

【GOJO SATORU】
> really good.

【GETO SUGURU】
< good because you have to get out before anyone else gets back from their night-hunt.

【GOJO SATORU】
> (small) what if i wanted to stay?

【GETO SUGURU】
< satoru.< you still have a world out there that accepts you. you aren't being hunted by everyone known in the world or on sight.< you should stay there.< in the bright, brilliant world.< it's where you belong.(kisses his forehead, his tears as satoru cries silently.)

【GOJO SATORU】
> it doesn't matter to me.

【GETO SUGURU】
< if you don't regret it, i will. for taking you away.< you still have my number. text me when you can come. i'll fuck you good. or next time,
u can fuck me.< don't cry, satoru.< just because you didn't get your way. it's not going to work this time. no matter how beautiful you are. and you're really beautiful. and you know it and i know you know it but you didn't know i thought that, too.< i think you're really beautiful, and really lonely, satoru.< i think we're a bad match, two betta fish fighting for dominance. leave us alone long enough, one of us will kill the other.< it's just how it is, even if we can have moments of peace.< c'mon, don't cry. it's just how it's meant to be. your little EPISODE will be over soon, i think, and everything will be back to normal. for you. and your life. hunting me.< c'mon. there's more to the world than just...this. you and me. and our fucked up things.< c'mon, i'll wipe you down, then you really have to go.< but i'll see you again soon.

【GOJO SATORU】
(lies still while suguru wipes him down and cleans him up.)> do you think you could ever love me? does the possibility exist? I...I DON'T KNOW, I'VE NEVER FELT...I CAN'T IMAGINE IT.> could you love me, do you think, in another world? where things didn't turn out like this?

【GETO SUGURU】
(SILENT)

【GETO SUGURU】
< i think...even if i did (((i do))) it wouldn't matter. it wouldn't change anything, you know.< our lives just aren't compatible. two fighting fish.

【GOJO SATORU】
> even if i became another animal? (small) like your honeybird?

【GETO SUGURU】
< satoru, i know it hurts.< but you have to give it up.< it won't hurt when everything is back to normal. and you go back into the daylight and the suntime and the EPISODE you're having fades and you wake upand you're all arrogant pissbaby insufferable bastard again.

【GOJO SATORU】
> (don't you know that's fake, suguru? don't you know by now? can't you see? inside myself, i am very small.)> (but satoru says nothing.)> (the unspeakable is rendered by the silence that is formed in the absence of belief. no matter how many times or iterations of such things come to pass,> the unspeakable arises in the silence that comes of the absence of belief.> but a touchstone of recovery is the exoneration of grief.)

【GOJO SATORU】
> I WISH, AT LEAST ONCE, IT COULD BE ENOUGH.> do you know the legend? if two of us make the same wish, it will come true.

【GOJO SATORU】
> i wish for this.> i'll let you wish for you.